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08:53pm 11/07/2005
  i miss my dad  
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05:40pm 28/04/2005
  fuck you weston ranch

we're outta here!
 
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merry christmas faggots   
04:40pm 18/12/2004
  Christmas is hell on earth, I know nothing worst
then being depressed and told to be happy.
The season of su-icide, I know why they died
Christmas reminds me I have nothing

I've got no girl there's only me
no friends or family, another Christmas alone
Got no food to eat, no ornaments or wreath
so I'll hang myself from the tree

Christmas is dark and wet, so I can't forget
Christmas reminds me I have nothing
this is the end of hope, I won't write a note
because it would be addressed to no one

I've got no girl there's only me
no friends or family, another Christmas alone
Got no food to eat, no ornaments or wreath
so I'll hang myself from the tree

Now I will say good-bye, no one will cry
Christmas goes on without me
My life is now complete, so I'll go to sleep
Forever and ever and ever...

I've got no girl there's only me
no friends or family, another Christmas alone
Got no food to eat, no ornaments or wreath
so I'll hang myself from the tree
 
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04:55pm 08/11/2004
  yeah yeah shes my girl, toughest girl in the whole wide world












and you know i told you so shes the one
shes the one
shes the one
 
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happy halloween bitches   
05:48pm 29/10/2004
  Do you hear that sound
Beneath the rustling autumn leaves?
You can't hear the word,
But you know just what they mean.
You've gotta tap your toes against the ground,
So all the bones can hear the sound,
To let them know below that you believe.

When you hear those spirits calling,
There ain't no use to fight.
We'll trade faces with the shadows
And change voices with the night.

Do you feal that glow behind the rottingwillow tree?
Something in there knows muchmore than you can see.
It says there's a task ahead of you,
So dawn the mask and down the brew,
And peer into the sphere of history.

Icklemuck puddlewuck, ting ling zsu.
Chulatat Psilophat, mug wump chu.

When the church bell sounds
And the sky drips down, ain't nothing is a sin.
So we'll taste the ground while we dance around
Underneath each other's skin.
When the raven calls your name
And the barn owl starts her flight,
We'll trade faces with the shadows
And change voices with the night.

When you hear those spirits calling,
There ain't no wrong or right.
We'll trade faces with the shadows
And change voices with the night.
 
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09:12pm 17/10/2004
  ill shove your balls up your ass so the next time you shit youll shit all over your balls, is that what you want?  
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09:07pm 13/10/2004
 

you cant really see it, but tawny is shooting fire out of her mouth and she is killing me dead
 
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11:38pm 12/10/2004
  im STD and pregnant free!

w00t!
 
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04:57pm 08/10/2004
  (x) I have been drunk
(x) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) I have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I crashed a friend's car
( ) I have been to Japan
(x) I rode in a taxi
(x) I have been in love
(x) I've had sex
( ) I've had sex in public
(x) I've shoplifted
( ) I have been fired
( ) I have cut myself on purpose
(x) I have been in a fist fight
( ) I've had a 3-some
( ) I've snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I have been tied up
( ) I have been caught masturbating
( ) I have been arrested
(x) I've made out with a stranger
(x) I've stolen something from my job
( ) I've celebrated New Year's in Time Square
( ) I've gone on a blind date
( ) I've had a crush on a teacher
( ) I've celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
( ) I have been to Europe
(x) I've skipped school
( ) I've slept with a co-worker
( ) I have thrown up in a bar
(x) I have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I have eaten sushi
( ) I have been snowboarding
( ) I have been snow skiing
( ) I have made a snow angel
( ) I have been happy with myself
( ) I have met a movie star
( ) I had sex in a pool
( ) I went to a prom
( ) I've bungee jumped
( ) I have been to a pop concert
(x) I have dated someone for over a year
( ) I sold naked pictures of myself
(x) I have been in a car accident
(x) I have slept in the nude
(x) I've eaten cheesecake
( ) I've had jury duty
(x) I've hated someone without knowing them
( ) I have been to Maine
(x) I've shot a real gun
(x) I've ran around with my trousers around my ankles
(x) I've had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
( ) I've done ecstasy
(x) I've gotten my ass kicked
(x) I've been caught smoking
( ) I've milked a cow
( ) I've got in a verbal fight with a teacher
( ) I've cheated on someone
( ) Lied one time in this survey
( ) Lied more then once in this survey
( ) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
( ) Partied every weekend for the last month
( ) Sniffed markers to get high
(x) Slept for more than 15 hours at a time
( ) Petted a live tiger
(x) Kissed someone in the snow
( ) Found a four leaf clover
( ) Gave your parents the finger behind a closed door
( ) Gotten drunk in Germany
(x) Cried in public
( ) Cried in public in the last 5 days
(x) Been hit on by a member of the same sex
( ) Been asked to perform oral sex by a complete stranger
(x) Have unknowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
( ) Have knowingly been the other man/woman in a relationship
 
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its time to die   
10:11pm 26/09/2004
  well here i am, this is my monthly update i suppose.

im workin a lot and its killin me. poor tawny i come home everyday all stressed and cranky and tired, i try to take her out but ehh, doesnt really seem like enough to me though. i got a raise atleast, and im plannin on getting some new tattoos soon. a stitched heart, probly on my neck or on the back of my neck, and a picture of jack skellington with some pumpkins. yeah, thats about it.

halloweens comin up, time to get my batman costume. i swear ill get nothin but respect from people. who would fuck with batman?

yeah yeah yeah

i miss you frank and jesska. hurry up and come back, i need you inside me.
 
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04:02pm 05/09/2004
  lamesauce dude, lamesauce  
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perfect angels   
05:23pm 27/08/2004
 









 
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04:39pm 18/08/2004
  man sometimes its super duper hard to get up in the morning. everyday i get all nervous before work, smoke 3 or 4 cigarettes before i even leave the house. i wonder why the hell i keep going on and then i look over to you and you just smile at me. makes it all worth it knowing that im taking care of you.

im so empty here without you
 
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03:43pm 10/08/2004
  1. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? black dickies with grout and concrete all over em

2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? wat tylers cover of evolution from subhumans

3. SOUPS OR SALAD? salad

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? a sandwich

5. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? red of course

6. WEATHER RIGHT NOW? uncomfy

7. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? tawny
8. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? i hate her

9. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? fairly shitty
10. FAVORITE DRINK? urin
11. FAVORITE SPORTS TEAM? stockton ceramic tile, WE'RE A TEAM

12. EYE COLOR? the color they turn when you shove your fingers in em

13. YOU WEAR CONTACTS? contacts are nerdy

14. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES? my twin brotha alexander whos 21 and my twin sister whos 36
15. FAVORITE FOOD? icecream

16. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? that white castle movie

17. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? halloween
18. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? nope

19. SUMMER OR WINTER? womterz

20. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? monogomous one night stands for months at a time

21. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? swirl

22. YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? if they dont ill just DIE

23. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? none of em cause theyre bitches
24. LEAST LIKELY? open your ears stupid

25. LIVING ARRANGEMENT: in the batcave

26. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING? (none anymore
27. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSEPAD? a cat on a hammok
28. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? i masturbated while crying
29. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? with my tongue piercing
30. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? mr t
31. POPCORN: gets you fat
32. FAVORITE CAR: one of those flying ones with the lightning bolts on the side

33. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 33333333333333333333333333333333

34. CAN YOU JUGGLE? i can do ANYTHING
36. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE TRAPPED IN A ROOM WITH? that beaner tawny, man i hate her
37. 7UP OR SPRITE? sprite, i dont like the guys on the 7up commercial. id rather obey my thirst

38. COFFEE? i used to like it til i heard it was a laxative

39. FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE: human feces all over my body
40. DOGS OR CATS? dog cat hybrids

41. FAVORITE PLACE TO VISIT? the moon

42. WHO ARE YOU VOTING FOR? george bush of course
 
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if you fill this out ill give you a dollar and some change   
03:37pm 10/08/2004
  WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF.
» I died from natural causes?
» I said I liked you?
» I kissed you?
» I lived next door to you?
» I started smoking?
» I stole something?
» I was hospitalized?
» I ran away from home?
» I got into a fight and you weren't there?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY.
» Personality?
» Eyes?
» Face?
» Hair?
» Clothes?
» Mannerisms?
» Family?

WOULD YOU.
» Be my friend?
» Have sex with me?
» Lie to make me feel better?
» Spread rumors about me?
» Keep a secret if I told you one?
» Loan me some cash?
» Hold my hand?
» Take a bullet for me?
» Keep in touch?
» Try and solve my problems?
» Date me?
» Love me?
 
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mike hunt smells like a rotting carcass   
04:42pm 06/08/2004
  Have you ever...
[x] been drunk.
[x] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[x] had sex.
[ ] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] made out with a stranger.
[x] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[x] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'.
[ } had a sleepover party.
[x} went ice skating.
[ ] dropped x.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[x] had a quinceanera.
[x] have a car.
[x] drove.

Do you...
[x] have a bf.
[x] have a gf.
[x] have a crush
[ ] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] think youre attractive.
[xxxx] have a dog.
[ ] have your own room.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[ ] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[ ] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color yellow.
[xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[ ] like to read.
[ ] like to write.
[x] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.

Are you...
[x] ugly..
[ ] pretty.
[x] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[x] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[x] short.
[x] tall.
[x] grounded.
[x] sick.
[x] a virgin.
[ ] lazy.
[ ] single.
[x] taken.
[ ] looking....see next question
[x] not looking...too tricky to answer straight
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[ ] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic.
[ ] racist
 
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bored bored bored   
11:45am 31/07/2004
  LAYER ONE:
-- Name: christopher lee billingsley
-- Birth date: september 5 1982
-- Birthplace: san HO
-- Current Location: weston ranch, representin
-- Eye Color: hazel
-- Hair Color: shit brown
-- Height: 5'9 or 5'10
-- Righty or Lefty: neither
-- Zodiac Sign: virgo
LAYER TWO:
-- Your Heritage: portugeese english scottish indian ummm, some other stuff, i forget. im a big mutt. i come from a family of race traiters
-- The Shoes You Wore Today: christmas converse
-- Your Weakness: this and that
-- Your Fears: batman fears nothing
-- Your Perfect Pizza: razr blades and cheese
-- Goal You'd Like To Achieve: dance dance revolution champion of the world
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on MSN: OMG!! WTF?!?! lolz
-- Your thoughts first waking up: god damn i hate work
-- Your best physical feature: i dunno.
-- Your bedtime: whenever i stop shaking and crying
-- Your most missed memory: something about my parents
LAYER FOUR:
-- Smoke: me smoke? never
-- Cuss: people tell me im pretty vulgar.
-- Sing: i like to pretend im mariah carrey sometimes
-- Take a shower everyday: in other countries its considered vain to take a shower everyday.
-- Have a crush: you can call it that
-- Do you think you've been in love: i know it
-- Want to go to college: i wanna go back but ive got a lot of shit to take care of first
-- Like high school: it had its moments
-- Want to get married: maybe
-- Believe in yourself: how will i learn to fly if i dont
-- Think you're attractive: not really
-- Think you're a health freak: i take care of myself.
-- Get along with your parent(s): yep
-- Like thunderstorms: yep
-- Play an instrument: guitar til this whole carpal tunnel thing came up
LAYER FIVE:
In the past month have you?:
-- Drank alcohol: once or twice i think
-- Smoked: yep
-- Made Out: mc chris numba one with the ladies
-- Gone on a date? took my lady on a date a few days ago
-- Gone to the mall?: i think so
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: im not trying to get diarrhea
-- Eaten sushi: disgusting
-- Been on stage: fuck no
-- Been dumped: nope
-- Gone skating: no, but i have skates
LAYER SIX:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: dont think so
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: not for a while
-- Gotten beaten up: when iw as 13 or so i got jumped by a few kids, but ive won every other fight ive been in. chris smash
-- Shoplifted: when i was a kid
-- Changed who you were to fit in: lame sauce
LAYER SEVEN:
-- Age you hope to be married: whenever i can take care of someone
-- Numbers and Names of Children: just one, his name will be christmas dinner
--Describe your Dream Wedding: running around naked, bloody, and screaming
-- Where you want to go to college: sacto has a good mechanic program that i want to get into
 
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12:40am 23/07/2004
  1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? christopher lee billingsley
> 2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? grey plaid pjs
> 3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? frank sinatra mack the knife
> 4. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? vomit pizza
> 5. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? only the stars in your eyes,
> 6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? one of the rainbow ones
> 7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? a wizzle hot
> 8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? spawn jon
> 9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? shes pretty rad
> 10. HOW OLD ARE YOU TODAY? 21 years young
> 11. FAVORITE DRINK? period blood
> 12. FAVORITE SPORT? pride fighting/ufc type stuff
> 13. HAIR COLOR? dog shit brown
> 14. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? of course
> 15. SIBLINGS? sonya and alexander
> 16. FAVORITE MONTH? december
> 17. FAVORITE FOOD? human
> 18. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? pulp fiction
> 19. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? christmas
> 20. WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER? smack around bitches n hos
> 21. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? transformers action figures
> 22. SUMMER OR WINTER? winter.
> 23. HUGS OR KISSES? slaps on the ass
> 24. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? white chocolate
> 25. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE/ E-MAIL BACK? of course
> 26. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?everyone cause they love me
> 27. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? bill clinton
> 28. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? oy vey, im tryin to move out
> 29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? few months ago
> 30. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? germs
> 31. WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? george, ive known him since i was 4
> 32. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? saw i robot with tan y
> 33. FAVORITE SMELLS? maggots
> 34. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? the lion king
> 35. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? fucking up the rest of my life
> 36. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? kettle corn is better
> 37. FAVORITE CAR? old school cars and "ass kickin'" motorcycles
> 38. FAVORITE FLOWER? rose, everyone likes em
> 39. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 3
> 40. HOW MANY YEARS AT YOUR CURRENT JOB? few months
> 41. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? pay day
> 42. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? had a thing at the park and had some bands play in my garage
> 43. HOW MANY STATES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? just the golden state
> 44. HOW MANY CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 5
> 45. HOW MANY CARS HAVE YOU HAD & WHAT WAS THE FIRST
> CAR THAT YOU HAD? 1, the batmobile
> 46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? san jose
> 47. TATTOOS & PIERCINGS? this and that
> 48. DREAM JOB? super hero
> 49. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? in it
> 50. MESSAGE TO THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS: stacy, you rock and roll. ive known you since i was 13. camping was fun, yeah.
 
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07:08pm 09/07/2004
  THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. fritz
2. carnie
3. christopher

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my tight ass
2. my bleeding lungs
3. extreme rapping skillz

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. this
2. and
3. that

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. women
2. spanish
3. spanish women

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. your face
2. people
3. my coworkers

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. losing my virginity
2. ALIENS
3. freddy krueger

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. cigarettes
2. tawny
3. music

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. icons of filth
2. subhumans
3. tom waits

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. the big empty from stone temple pilots
2. your emotions from dead kennedys
3. mr tambourine man from bob dylan

THREE person/or sets PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. tawny
2. aaron
3. jt

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. fly
2. breathe underwater
3. shoot lasers from my eyes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. working
2. kissing my own muscles
3. video games

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. to be able to shoot lasers from my eyes
2. new car
3. a third arm

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. mechanic
2. tile setter
3. super hero

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. san fran
2. new york
3. europe

THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. kill a rockstar
2. build a rocket
3. get pregnant
 
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10:06pm 28/06/2004
  {(fAvOrItEs)}
Color:: red
Animal:: crackers
Food:: steak and hamboogers
Candy:: white chocolate stuff
Type of Gum:: the yellow stuff
Subject at School:: philosophy
Place To Be:: in the corner crying

{(NaMe ThE lAsT...)}
Thing you ate:: chicken with sauce and cheese
Place you went:: the mall
Person you talked to:: spence dog
Thing you said:: thanks
Thing you bought:: cigarettes
Time you hugged Somebody:: today
Time you kissed Somebody:: yesterday
Time you laughed:: earlier today with amber and spencer
Person you talked to online:: tawny

{(FrIeNds//PeOpLe)}
Name your best friends:: tawny, my brother, bob, spencer, ginger
Which friend is the craziest?: ginger
Which is the shyest?: tawny, my brother
Which is smartest?: my brother
Which is loudest?: spencer
Funniest?: all of em
Hottest?: tan y
Most Energetic?: bob
Which is most helpful?: tawny
Who do you wish you could hang out with more? tawny
Who have you known the longest?: bob
Who knows you the best?: ginger


{(RaNdOm...)}
Do you like the number 12?: its the devils number
What are you wearing?: halloween boxers and a wifebeater
What are you listening to?: some online radio station
Who are you talking to?: tawny online
What do you want for your birthday?: a new car
Do you like Dave The Barbarian?: not his personality, but his barbarian size cock
If you could be in any movie, what movie would you be in?: the lion king
Have you ever seen a statue of a cow?: what kind of loser hasnt
Do you by any chance own a tuxedo?: 12 of them

{(FINISH the sentence!!!)}
Bob Marley is...: filled with worms now

I am...: sick of everything
I like...: banging my head into the wall
One time at band camp...: jason came out and slaughtered my councelor
Once upon a time...: i threw up my liver, stomach, and kidneys
I like big butts...: when they sit on my face
Surveys Are...: lame
Star light, Star bright...: my vagina smells tonight
Outside it is...: scary
Ceiling fans are..: dangerous
One time I accidently killed a...: snickers bar

{(FILL IN THE BLANK!)}
the person who made this survey is ________.: hilarious and original, two thumbs up
i _______ country music.: feels like razor blades coming out of my urethra
i love _______.: mexi-wops
i saw ___________ at the movie theater.: kindgergarten cop
i __________ tomorrow.: dont wanna work
i hate _________.: most people
i would never ever _______________.: pass up eating jerky made out of human babies
i would love to ________________.: be able to take care of tawny
i hope somebody _____________.: will let me pee on their face
i will____________.: become batman
i will be sad if ______________.: my life is like this forever
 
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